Serious chats

Dear boys,
I didn't visit you this weekend but last weekend I went over Saturday and tried to catch up on my cuddling with Noah. I stil owe him about 4 hours! You mom made fun of me because I couldn't tell you apart still. Then Grandpa K and Chris showed up. Your dad and Grandpa disappeared into the living room to watch football (yuck!) and I had a great conversation with your mom and Grandma K (I call her Chris...hard for me to call her Grandma K since I think of my mother as that...I don't know what you'll be calling her when you get old enough to talk!) We talked about our own mothers. Your mom was wondering how to handle things about your Nana, even considering the possibility of just "being done" with her. Chris was trying to convince her to do everything in her power first at least, writing her a letter maybe. But then Chris also was complaining about her own mother since they've not had the best relationship ever. She wonders if she'll feel relief after her mom dies. Knowing myself how hard it still is after losing your grandmother, I had to just listen quietly since I knew nothing I could say would make a difference or take away the pain she'll feel once her mom is gone forever. She said she feels like she's let go of a lot already and has already grieved a lot so she doesn't think the grief will be that bad. We all think, for the most part, that we are less vulnerable than others to life's catastrophies but we are not. I look at both of you and consider that each day you are alive is a gift to all of us, but that may not always be the case, and one day, one of you will lose the other, and hopefully we will not lose either of you before you even know the difference. Boy, this is pretty grim stuff to write in an ongoing letter to two infants but I hope the words may offer some comfort or support if and when life deals nasty blows, since it will.
I didnt' see you guys this weekend because I'm a little worried about becoming a pain-in-the-neck(I don't want to be like my mother was) so I figured I'd give your parents some space and let them call me next. Both your mom and dad are not the best at keeping communication open but we'll cut them some slack right now while they hold thier heads up for your feedings every three hours!!!
Uncle Joe wanted to see you guys so badly last weekend that we made a special trip on Sunday when he got back from a conservation commission workshp, just so he could fix your bedroom door. It was too noisy since the house had settled I guess and the hinges had to be refigured differently. One screw was stripped so you mom couldn't get it off with her handy tool set. Your dad is still working on idenitfying each tool (phillips vs. regular screw driver for example- we always tease him about that) When we went over Sunday, you had more guests..Kay Graham and Shirley Wells. They brought your shower gifts over since they didn't make it to the shower. (two Christmas stockings that Shirley crocheted) We brought you out in the sun for the first time and got a little vitamin D but it was actually hot for Oct. 21!